Life sucked.
"...malungkot-ako 'pag walang txt galing SA'YO"
-anonymous.
not sure.
Alright, alright. I'm hurting her. Maybe.
This day I tried damn hard to put on a smile. Audrey and Nika helped me out. Then there's Kuya Dude. and Van. and Rojan. Then Andrew, 'riel. Tot+ his blockmate Edz. Almost everyone, actually.
I was just wond'ring how everyone else would be there for you but you'd still feel emo without that person. I hate being unfair, but all along, I was. She's trying to reach hard, but I won't grab her hand and go with her. I'm afraid. I was hurt. I'm hurting.
Fuck life. I still love her.
I'm trying to go on. "move on," they'd say. Howeffinever, I can't. I just can't forgive right away, I just can't forget. I hate living this way, but I know that choices won't change what you feel. We don't have all the control over our feelings. I can't simply choose to forgive her, because I already did and this still is the situation that I'm in. I've lost all trust. I've lost all faith. I want to be there for her. I want to love her. I want to be what I told her I'll be for her. I still can be that, if she stays silent. This I tell you: I hate limits. I hate boundaries. I never wanted this.
". . . it really makes me wonder if I ever gave an F about you. Give me something to believe in 'cause I don't believe in you anymore."
Alright, alright. I'm hurting her. Maybe.
This day I tried damn hard to put on a smile. Audrey and Nika helped me out. Then there's Kuya Dude. and Van. and Rojan. Then Andrew, 'riel. Tot+ his blockmate Edz. Almost everyone, actually.
I was just wond'ring how everyone else would be there for you but you'd still feel emo without that person. I hate being unfair, but all along, I was. She's trying to reach hard, but I won't grab her hand and go with her. I'm afraid. I was hurt. I'm hurting.
Fuck life. I still love her.
I'm trying to go on. "move on," they'd say. Howeffinever, I can't. I just can't forgive right away, I just can't forget. I hate living this way, but I know that choices won't change what you feel. We don't have all the control over our feelings. I can't simply choose to forgive her, because I already did and this still is the situation that I'm in. I've lost all trust. I've lost all faith. I want to be there for her. I want to love her. I want to be what I told her I'll be for her. I still can be that, if she stays silent. This I tell you: I hate limits. I hate boundaries. I never wanted this.
". . . it really makes me wonder if I ever gave an F about you. Give me something to believe in 'cause I don't believe in you anymore."
-Maroon5, Makes me Wonder
everyday he searches, everyday he finds.I'll move on, dammit.
2 comments:
Pot.
He is also hurting me.
He has lost his faith.
I was trying to reach hard, but he wouldn't grab my hand.
Sooo painful talaga, pot.
And yea. Hanap tayo ng mr scype. *tama ba spelling?* promise pag punta ko ng glorietta, ihahanap kita ng giraffe na maikli yung leeg. :)
Mr. Scalp un nix.^_^
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