They do know me.

According to a chain message posted on friendster yesterday, this is what a gemini baby is:

"The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not
one to mess with.Funny. Excellent
kisser. extremely adorable. Loves
relationships. addictive."

Yes, I lie.
More often than not, I hide what I really feel. A man wouldn't ever want to be hated by many for how that man wants to live his life, anyway. However, in most cases, everyone would go against you. Everyone would bother. Everyone would freak out.
I never want to do this, but I lie to live my life in the most convenient way that I can. Fortunately I am pursuing a career where I am in an environment where almost people mutually exist with each other, with acceptance, if not understanding. I'll pass through this phase.
Yes, they love me.
but I am too numb to feel. Honestly, this phase that I'm in was caused by the deception I experienced from Giezelle and Treb. It's not that I put the blame on them, but it's the truth. I now find it very difficult to believe what others tell me they feel, what they make me feel, or even what I feel. Deception is the thing I hate most.
I am spontaneous...
because I'm too lazy to prepare.
I am not one to mess with.
I am über sensitive, but most of the time I'm harmless. I am not anymore suicidal, but I tend to keep to myself the pain. I think I am not one to mess with if you care. But feel free to bully.
I am not funny.
...but I have a lot of fun..^_^
I don't know if I am an excellent kisser, but I sure am not that much adorable.
seductive would have been the better word.;p
I hated relationships.
but I sure will love the next one.
I am addictive.
note:It takes a lot of time to get to know me.

other words:
Audrey told me that I'm bitter. To clarify things, I really have been. But many people know that I wasn't. *kwento ku nlng seo odie.^_^*

Kanina nagalit sa'kin si Cathy.
at nasaktan ako sa dahilan. pero sorry po talaga kung mali 'yung sagot ko. that was just what I thought was right--don't say you know a person right away. Ako kasi, personally, alam 'to ng mga naging kaibigan ko at nakakasakit ako dahil dito, pero kahit matagal na akong kilala 'nung tao sa pangalan, sa mukha, sa pagkakamali at sa mga na-witness niyang experiences ko, sinasabi kong hindi niya pa ako kilala. (talk about being bitter) I hope we could settle our differences soon. tC. I'm sorry.

may atraso pa ako kay tot
and everyday I feel more sorry. Sorry talaga bro.

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everyday he searches, everyday he finds.

Birth.

New blog, new life.
Anyone who knows me really well know that I've wanted to blog since I knew that I could. But hell, I almost never did. Fortunately, I had one attempt at blogging, but on the other hand, I hated damned it for being not flexible in terms if design. I hate limits, and that held me back from actually writing. I created this blog selfishly, to discern who I really am, but generously enough to share this "quest" with you. Yes, sweetie, that's right.
The perfect day.
This day, I know, was pre-destined to be the birth of this blog, since it is the first time ever that I showed a fragment of my personality to my blockmates of a week and a day in 1ad5. It also marks the day when being a Fine Arts student of the Royal Pontifical Catholic University of the Philippines majoring in Advertising sunk in to me. What it meant was that I believe that today is when I realized how much responsibility I need to carry on. I'm obliged to be responsible, being a student, a beneficiary, a kuya and a son. (it might have been too late, eh?)
I have a vision.
I thought I was going to be Mr. Dreaming forever, without considering being Mr. Seeing. That was what I didn't have. A vision. In our Lettering class this morning, Sir Boyet Caaway gave us one inspiring quote that read "One of the rarest thing[s] that a man does is to do the best he can." That was one helluva discussion. I really am in love with 1ad5
--we simply are the best.
I see myself as someone who'll see what he dreams and hopes for. That's what my vision is. It may sound cliché, but I am here to change the world--the very day I discover myself.

"A dream is something you may want to achieve, but a vision is something that you will die for."

I see myself with that girl that I will love. I'm not sure who she is or how she looks like, but we'll leave a mark on the world with our art, our thoughts, ourselves and everything else that we and will have--together.
Very soon.
I know I'm close to finding myself. wait for me. I'll catch up with your pace. I'll move the world, too. Join me in my sleep.
Let's dream together.

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everyday he searches, everyday he finds.